Trust

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean on not your own understanding.

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your path.”

These words from our Father are so simple but yet can be a challenge for our hearts to grasp. Past hurts can shape a heart of mistrust. The first memory of my trust being broken is the day my dad drove away from home and never came back. I was a small child and remember crying and running after the car begging him to come back. I lost my hero.

The second incident that left my trust broken was repeatedly being sexually abused as a young girl by someone who was in a position to protect me. My security was broken and my abuser used threats to keep me silent. I was told that I would not be believed and strangers would take me away from my home. I felt so alone with no place to turn.

These two main life circumstances shaped my concept of whom I could trust. It also put up barriers that did not allow people to come close. I was walking around confused and wounded. I had so much anger with no idea how to release it. I did not know God at these points in my life.

When I accepted Christ into my life a work of redemption began. He started to reveal the true definition of trust. If our actions are being driven by our flesh we are following an example of the fallen world. When we receive God, we allow Him to direct our path and the flesh dies. His understanding begins to saturate our hearts.

There are many times I need to read, meditate and write these words on my heart. I am a work in progress. God is taking me through the pain to build the trust and faith in Him. He is breaking down the things of my past to put me on His path of truth, He is molding me into the image of Him. The world view is being forgotten. I made the choice to welcome Him to live within me and walk His path of victory. He whispers to me in my trials daily "Trust me, I am here and will never leave you."

My hearts in total surrender; trusting in Him.